The day is Sunday 18/7/22, I’ve achieved a new reality. I’m working as an IT Support Engineer in Primetel and starting to feel good in my shoes with my current position. I’m trying to keep a professional status with leadership qualities and standing my ground with my colleagues to gain respect. I’m pleasant and starting to build relationships however I’m nowhere near my salary expectations. Life in Arakapas is still the same. People who gossip and have no interest in knowing me and to build a friendly relationship with me. Most of my relatives are distant with me and with my family.
I have build a healthy relationship with my parents and that is one of my biggest achievements. I healed myself from the past traumas and hold no grudges towards my parents and family members. However in my attempt to build a relationship with them I have absorbed their mindset and way of thinking.
What is the next step to move on with my life and leave Arakapas villege? The only thing that I feel mine is the park that my grandfather left with his legacy. I can’t connect with people from Arakapas, I’ve tried but there is always the feeling that they are judging every move of mine. I can’t lead people who don’t want to be led. I can’t offer them something if they don’t want my gifts. The woman of my dreams lives in Edinburgh and I am living in a place where social life doesn’t exist unless I go out in limassol, or another city where a few friends left.
I don’t feel comfortable to even do my hobbies like running, dancing or singing in this place. I don’t feel free and comfortable. This is not the future I was dreaming. If the career path of a Web Developer was wrong for me then I can succeed in another field of IT like IT Support or DevOps / Linux Administration. It is up to me to shift my learning goals and skills. It is up to me to negotiate a better salary with companies. I have to get to work and find my ambitious self.